For me I have all my senses inside my mind too.
Visual: I can see things in detail and can change and manipulate the images in my mind.
Auditory: My inner monologue is LOUD and clear, there is a main voice but also other sounds and layers of voices. I hear music constantly and clearly. I wake up from a dream in the middle of the night and my brain is halfway through a song already, its like its always there even when sleeping. I can manipulate the sounds too; I can make the narrator have any voice that I know and say anything I choose. So I could hear a clear sentence in my head and change it to my friends or a famous persons voice. I can start and stop the music, take it apart, focus on one instrument or aspect, slow it down, speed it up. I can remix songs together in my head and fade in from one song into another. If I stop the music it only lasts a few second before a new song starts up involuntarily.
Taste: I get the same as others have described that I can think of something salty or bitter and feel a response in my mouth e.g the thought of salty crisps makes my mouth water. I can also taste other foods too, I can imagine bread or sausages and taste them. Its not as vivid as the sounds but pretty clear still.
Smell: I can conjure up a very limited smell of something strong like vanilla or a rubbish bin. I have to try though, its not automatic like the others. My mum says are her memories are linked with a smell.
Tactile: I feel textures when I think of them so when I imagine eating bread I can feel the texture of the crispy crust and the soft centre in my mouth. I can think of a soft blanket rubbing on my arm and feel it.
Emotional: I feel EVERYTHING, all the time. If I think of any memory a very strong emotion fills my body, often the feeling of the memory has a more intense version than how I felt ar the time I experienced it. If I remember something feeling bad, the memory feels REALLY bad. If I remember a loving moment, it fills me up with a warm happy feeling. I also feel everyone else’s feelings around me all the time. I am really effected by the vibe of a room of people, by their micro actions and the tone of their voices. If I feel someone is sad, it plunges me into heartbreaking sadness for them. If I think of someone feeling lonely my chest aches, like it physically aches. I have to be so careful what I watch on TV cause high drama makes me so stresses and emotional its too hard to watch. Sad scenes and trauma are painful to watch. If someone is tortured or attacked on TV I feel like its happening in real life in front of me and my whole body responds and its physically unbearable to watch.
From reading this post I see a lot of people here don’t have these sensations in their minds and some think it would be nice to have them. So, I thought explaining the difficulties that come with this may be helpful.
I FEEL EVERYTHING. As I’ve said above, if I see someone bang their head its like I have too. If I see heartbreak on TV my heart aches. If I think of a bad taste, I taste it. If I remember a time that was anything but happy I feel it soooo much. Every embarrassing, awkward, sad, stressful thing I’ve ever experienced is in my head and thinking of it caused strong and overwhelming emotions.
When I recall a memory, I am back at that time. I see it all clearly, feel it all, I hear it all, the lot. There are lots of memories that you don’t want to relive.
My inner world is LOUD and overwhelming. I gey stuck in my head and in day dreams for hours on end. My head is so loud its hard to think straight some times (I know that’s confusing but that’s the only way I can explain in).
I cannot make decisions. When I make a decision I imagine all of the options and feel them. For example; do I want pasta or pizza for dinner? So I imagine each, taste them, smell them, feel the texture in my mouth. Sometimes this is an easy choice but more often than not I get stuck at that stage, everything tastes nice or equally OK and I try each out over and over and over again and struggle to decide.
I used to stand in the sweet shop for an hour each weekend with my pocket money as a kid, the shop keeper knew me and just ignored it. I was tasting every single option of choc or crisps and unable to choose.
- Its exhausting. I love aspects of my vivid inner world for sure but I would love some respite from it too! To turn down the volume of my thoughts would be really, really nice.
I wonder how much of this is linked with my ADHD. Someone described ADHD as having ’20 TVs on in your head, all playing different channels and all turned up to max’ and thats a really good description of my mind.