I found out I had aphantasia when I was 15 years old. Ironically, I was in the eye doctor when I stumble across an article on my phone revealing that my mind’s eye was blind. At first I didn’t think anything of it but as I kept reading it all made sense.
The first thing I did when I found out was tell my parents and my brother. They were shocked. Apparently my whole family can visualize in great detail and can’t possibly understand how I lack their ability. My father claims to be a hyperphantasic, its funny how we are still so similar but think so differently. As for my brother he is still convinced I can connect the receptors in my brain so I can visualize, but I’m not buying it.
I wasn’t really concerned until I heard how much I was missing out on. It made my family depressed to think about what my mind lacks and it started to upset me too. It’s impossible to understand how someone with visualization could ever be bored, or how they could ever quiet their mind to sleep. It makes me sad because so many people take it for granted but I would love to have the ability to see like them. I’ve started to look at aphantasia in a positive way. I believe that it has formed me into someone who never holds grudges, someone who always has to keep the adrenaline pumping, and someone who always lives in the moment.
However, finding out about this and just forgetting about it was not an option for me. I had to figure out more about it, hence, I am on this site. It’s been almost 6 months since I found out and my family likes to remind me everyday in their “hilarious” jokes. “So I have come to staging-aphantasia-staging.kinsta.cloud to discuss my theory.
I don’t think that I was born with aphantasia. I’m curious to see if it could be a result of the seizure I had on my first birthday. The doctors said I would have no brain damage, but I’m not sure this really qualifies as that. If anyone would like to discuss or confirm my theory it would be greatly appreciated.