What if we redefined “vivid” and “clear as real” on the spectrum?


I am gonna start this post by saying that I am probably phantasiac. That is what my results said exactly “probably phantasiac”, yes, I agree!

As a “probably” phantasiac person, and an artist, I am having a hard time navigating the symptoms of this condition.

First of all, do we close our eyes while imagining? If so, it is a lot easier for me to have a mental picture my eyes open, I instantly see it there. When my eyes are closed, the blackness distracts me and I see a dim / vague picture, and take some time to build it for more details.

We did the famous “apple test” with my friend together. Yes I see a very vivid apple, in a sense that I can imagine it in all scenarios (on a table, falling from a tree, on the grass). But what IS vivid? What do you mean by “clear as if it’s real”? No it is not clear for me like that.

We almost had an aggressive discussion with my friend (lol). I said; “you say that it is so vivid, are you sure that you are not just accepting the fact that it is vivid?”

He goes: “no, it is vivid”

And I go: “well, same, vivid for me too (huh). but???”

SIR, SIR, LISTEN! HOW DO WE MEASURE THAT?! HOW do YOU measure that? How are you so sure of yourself?

If it’s as clear as a day, wouldn’t that be psychosis? In the “normality”, wouldn’t there be a clear line in between the imagination and reality? I do have that line very clear. So how do you assume that your mental picture is SO clear and lively.

My point being, this made me question: am i *slightly* phantasiac, or am i just NOT hyperphantasiac.

There is no objective, solid measure for this. When you tell me to picture a very vivid red, I see that lightning fast, eyes open. Eyes closed, it is more dim and vague. So that I know it is my mind’s eye and not “real”. Though I could be lying and people wouldn’t know 👁

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