I discovered I had aphantasia when I was reading a self-work book of mine and it had told me to lay back with my eyes closed and truly visualize my future.
After trying to hard I finished with a headache, I realized I couldn’t form the desciptive images of my dream house, the career I wanted or the money in my account. It then registered that I never “daydreamed” as a kid, or why I couldn’t form a whole new world in my mind when reading a novel (must be why I’m so selective on books), and why I think so logically rather than creatively.
Trying to get in to meditation without the ability to visualize has stirred my pot a little bit and I find I struggle with it from time to time. My memory is less a jumbled mess most of the time, I find because I can’t see the moments I’ve lived and can’t place an image to my thoughts, I tend to forget many things. Despite my efforts to sharpen my mind on a daily basis. I fumble a lot on my journey through personal growth, and I truly to believe it would be awesome if I could imagine the person I wish to be.
Regardless of this, I am grateful for my unique ways of thinking. I just wish to dabble on the other side of things.
