Hi. Im a 47 year old woman and I know that I don’t have aphantasia, but something else is definitely going on for me. For my entire life I have been unable to picture myself in my mind. I have literally NO idea what I look like. When I look in the mirror, I know that is me. I could look at a photo with 100 people in it and i could point myself out no problem. I can even recognize when someone I meet resembles me. But to close my eyes and think of what I look like is impossible. It goes further. I can’t picture the people I love either. It’s extremely difficult/impossible to picture in my mind my mom, my dad, my brother, my husband etc. The strange thing is, I can easily imagine people that I’m not close to. I can close my eyes and see the barista who makes my latte every day. I can see my colleagues. My neighbors. But for me to try to picture myself or my loved ones in my mind just isn’t possible. For my entire life I have been told this is just nonsense for some Freudian emotional issue or that I’m just being silly. I’m desperately reaching out because I certainly can’t be the only one with this? I’ve looked it up online but I’ve never found anything. Posting here is the beginning of my trying to answer this.