Do your memories feel more like movies or more like facts?

я могу из детства фантазировать и звуки и запахи, сейчас 17 через пол месяца 18, только 2-3 месяца назад я начал намного больше и легче представлять себя со стороны других глаз, и сразу из 10-15 глаз могу смотреть на себя или на того, кого вижу, в детстве я много раз видел дежавю, оочень долгие сны как сейчас. Когда я в первые начал попадать в доолгие сны то мне стало страшно просыпаться и всё это помнить и сейчас помню каждый сон доолгий но не страшно. Я из рождения интроверт то мне плохо общаться, я геймер,игроман,меломан. В школе меня доставали и я начал намного больше игнорировать и от меня отстали, я не хочу знать то что мне не нужно например имена учителей или школьников, я не пожимаю руки потому что мне одного взгляда хватает на месяц но заставляют пожимать. Если надо могу росказать свои доолгие сны даже сны которые продолжались 3-5 дней. Мои воспоминания похожи как на реальную жизнь, я всегда из воспоминаний представлял и добавлял новое, смотрел из стороны, замедлял или ускорял воспоминания, я могу сделать из воспоминания и фильм и фантастику и детективство и драму, могу поменять цвета в воспоминаниях, воспоминания это как файл отправляется сразу в фантазию

I was recently diagnosed with sever ADHD with other underlying conditions that my psychological group were not able to assess as my ADHD assessment was paid for by work bc. I am 43 and just found out that I also have aphantasia! What a trip! I am actually kinda pissed off that I do not have the ability to create any form of image in my mind. No matter how hard I try I see only black sometimes a white pin point of white light or green light but that is it. However I am quite a good storyteller. I write a lot of books of course not completed blame it on the ADHD I suppose but now people are asking me how do you write such in-depth super interesting super detailed stuff when you don't have any visions on your head. My answer is I don't freaking know lol. Also when you ask about day dreaming that's a little hard to answer because I daydream all the time but it's more like disassociating and I'm not seeing things but just simply thinking of things. And talking to myself I do that constantly but also no words just thoughts back and forth so those questions were a bit confusing. My memories of I remember them are just memories lol like zero anything but a thought so ya very strange to find out that people have an actual minds eye because I surely do not.

I am a late age identifying and diagnosed AuDHD'r. I got the official autism part of the dx 6 months ago. The assessment showed that my verbal reasoning is in the 84th percentile and my working memory is in the 93rd percentile. One of the visualizations/memories assessments shows I score in the top 6% of those who have taken these. I found liberation with my dx. I have been learning so much about myself, and in turn, how abusive and neglectful my upbringing was. I am about 3 months into my first every truly therapeutic dose of ADHD medication, Concerta. I have very much been experiencing that surge of autism characteristics that comes when it no longer has to fight the ADHD. I had already figure out my pattern recognition capabilities where higher than I thought, prior to this dose of Concerta, and now most days I'm still a bit gobsmacked by how my brain works. I describe my mind like this sometimes: it's like I am standing and watching a live stream on a screen inside my head of what I am doing at any given time. Right now as I am typing this out, I am seeing a movie of it in my mind, complete with narrating what I am typing, while hearing it in my mind, in my own voice. I joke about my memory being like an old school library card catalog. It's a lot of info, but with enough context (dewey decimal system) I can get pretty detailed on old memories. Those also play movies in my mind, getting more clear and defined with context. I can feel when I see someone get injured. Watching a video yesterday of someones hand being broken in a door, I was hollering pretty loudly as it happened. I dance to songs I can hear in my mind. Fans sound like music. The electricity is hella loud right now. I haven't figured out yet why I smell occasional phantom odors. There's so much more I am figuring out more about daily. I was recently told by someone in a position to be able to say something like this, that an idea I shared with her might rewrite the framework of the supportive housing system. I seem to be intuitively inclined towards neuroplasticity, and I am about to start reading a quantum physics for beginners book, so that I have words to put to what I am pretty sure I already understand. So there's all that. I would love to hear from someone, because I'm pretty sure I'm working with something fairly uncommon here, and some insight would be magical. I will be 51 this year and Amerikkka locked me into a life of trauma and I'm pissed. Lol. I would love some guidance on how to start making up for lost time and tap into my full potential here. Please and thank you.

I was constantly asked, “How can you not remember that?”, but I just don't. I now understand why, although I also got the impression that I remember things better when strong feelings are involved. I think my way of remembering (or imaging) things is like '3D modelling without texture'. Person A, place B, doing C, but I don't see anything at all in my mind. However, I have a sense of space, so I can 'put things in place', even though I don't actually see anything; I just know.

No movies in my head. I have two very intelligent children - "gifted"! - but my son has often been impressed with my thinking. I used to explain this as my brain is a normal size computer but I have a very efficient operating system. When I realised that I probably have aphantasia that made perfect sense. I use my brain efficiently because it is not filled up with videos - you know how much space video takes in a computer! I think aphantasia is an evolutionary advance. Aphantasics think better. I don't know whether I have SDAM. I remember quite sufficient of my past. I think that I do tend to remember occasions where a photograph has been taken - or at least remember that there is a photograph. I am wondering whether my aphantasia makes it harder to learn Japanese characters?

My memories are for the most part a pile of facts, but it's like a spider web. If I recall an event and list the immediate bits I remember, those bits act as a memory jog where I get access to more and more details about the event. The amount of stuff I remember from an event I'm told is very impressive, but unfortunately a spider web of bits doesn't have a chronological order, so it's a mess! In turn the side effect is that people find it hard to believe what I'm saying because they're wondering whether I'm making things up on the spot. As for sensory details, just emotion. Emotion is so vivid, it's as if a memory can make me feel the way I felt when I was there. If my mind gets bored, it's a game of chance which memories will come up, but the most "emotionally loaded" memories have the highest chance, until the replays slowly desensitize the memory. With both CPTSD and Trauma Anxiety, being able to "bask" in the emotion from different memories is both a blessing and a curse. The good is really good, the bad is really bad. The only good thing my mind seems to do about the most traumatic memories is that they get "blocked" to a degree, so I'm left with a "rough outline" of what happened and their emotion, along with the full physical symptoms which leave me scratching my head half the time.

Thanks to this website, I’m now pretty sure I do have aphantasia, visual and auditive. It is said that it’s not a disability, but I believe that it has to be said that it impacted my whole life. But well, this isn’the question here. I have a very fresh example : I just spent three intense days, and wanted to tell my relatives what happened. But to be able to recall the memories, I have to start with the beginning, and detail facts. Only verbalising allow me to recall the memory. Or writing it down. When it is “into” me, it has no form, it’s a mess, no picture, no words. And often, if I don’t put it out quickly, it fades away, just like a dream. I have several mental health conditions, including ASD, ADHD, BPD and C-PTSD, that explained those memory issues, but during my therapy, I’ve often been asked to close my eyes and visualise. And since my psychs didn’t know what aphantasia is, they didn’t understand when I was reporting that I see nothing. So, sometimes, I was faking it. Maybe this was normal ? But those kind of exercises never gave any results. Now I understand why. When I tell people I have this condition, they are surprised, or don’t trust me : I draw, write, create from scratch. But the thing is I’m making art because without it, there’s only chaos inside. And, the thing is, I never know what I will create until I make it. I can’t previsualise. So, it’s pretty logical. At last, It was quite hard to tell if I was aphantasic or not : how can I tell I miss a sense if I never experienced it ? Like daltonians, realising they can’t see some colors very late in their life. The apple test, with the point, allowed me to say : ok, I AM aphantasic. Thank you for reading !

I remember facts but zero visuals. I have a very hard time remembering most all past events and even those I remember I do not remember much detail. Others can bring out memories in a limited way by talking about those times. I do not remember emotions other than vaguely. I generally am pretty much just living in the present.

I certainly don't recall any event as if it was a home movie, more like a book I know I've read but end up reading again because I can' remember how it ended.  Two weddings, two births, lots of birthdays and just facts and photos.  I worked 20 yrs at a high school and there is little I can tell you about it - just a handful of stories.  I even had to contact my daughter to ask if I was there when her child was born 23 yrs ago - I couldn't remember (she says I was).  I have little emotion attached to events of the past or the people in it.  When I was a child there was a traumatic event in our family.  My sister is still processing it and I've been "over it" since the day it happened.  My aphantasia is complete across the senses, I can't "dwell on the past," I just meet the new day and see what it brings.

Having just read Tom Ebeyer's comments about memory and Maarten Serneels article about SDAM I am feeling normalized (?). So many odd and disturbing thing about myself, like lack of childhood (and adulthood) memories, very few long term relationships and no real nostalgia for past family holidays or other events. What a relief to know that I am not deficient, just a bit different. And then again not so different from other people I am learning from and about since finding aphantasia. Thanks to everyone who has shared their experience here.

I feel like this is the first time my memory has been described correctly. I believe I have SDAM as I can only remember things from my childhood if I've seen a picture of that event within the last 10 years or so. I only have one memory that I can think of that brings back strong emotions (negative emotion) from about 12 years ago. I feel like I'm missing out on being able to retell stories about my childhood as I just don't remember what happened... I don't have a bad short term memory (usually) but, my long term memory continues to get worse and worse. I'm only 27 and as I learn more about Aphantasia and how my brain works, I get more and more worried that I'm going to forget other key moments of my life (wedding day, daughter being born, etc).

I was worried about my memory well before I found out I was Aphantasiac.I'd put my name down for a university study to get trhings checked out.The waiting list was long.I then had my epiphany and realised that I wasn't visualising.I wondereded if this was connected too.I recently got the call and spent 4 gruelling sessions getting tested.Some things were easy, some nigh on impossible.I got the results back on Tuesday and found to my surprise that I'm rather bright ( top 98percentile)and top 99.5 percentile for a couple of task types) and my memory was above average, but not as good ( 77percentile and 82 percentile) for the two types of memory tested.So I don't have early onset dementia, but the things that worried my might be explained, I was told, by trauma, stress, andopiod pain killers.So no link between lost time, missing memories and Aphantasia for me.Maybe you could contact your local universities and see if they can check you out too?Might give you a deeper insight.

I have an exceptionally good memory, especially for text and conversation. I can remember vivid emotional and verbal details of past events, especailly if I'm in the same location again. I don't have a strong experience of nostalgia - but then I don't have a lot of good past to miss!

This is a very interesting question. There is some early evidence that suggests aphantasia might be linked to another phenomenon known as Severely Deficient Autobiographical Memory, or SDAM for short. Autobiographical memory is defined as both the recollection of personal past events (i.e. special events from your past) and factual knowledge about oneself (i.e. your favourite food as a kid). People with SDAM have reported an ability to remember details about an event (because they've either seen a photo or deliberately learnt a story about what happened) but they cannot "picture" being there. This means that while they cannot experience the nostalgia of 'reliving the best times in life,' the upside is that they can’t recall the pain associated with the bad things either. This makes them far less likely to hold grudges as they can’t conjure up the emotion that made them feel bad in the first place. Pretty neat! Wish I was this way... Some aphants have reported having both conditions present. You can read more about Susie McKinnon's experience here. Does this experience sound familiar? What's your memory like?

My memory seems about average. I learn and remember best by doing the thing. If I've done something a few times then it's easy to remember, feels like it gets put in a permanent storage place in my brain. I can remember visual details of things if I put purposeful effort into it. The details are kept in a list of attributes like "Red shirt, short sleeves, fits loose" and such. I do have trouble recognizing people, it's not face blindness... it's just hard to remember someone unelss we had a particularly interesting conversation or dance (I go tango dancing a lot) or they happen to have a really really unique appearence that's easy to log in words in my head. Remembering first person events in my life tends to take the shape of words spoken + words describing the event, what I was feeling emotionally (if anything), and sometimes physical memory (I have a physical sense in my memory/imagination instead of visual, so not full aphantasia)