Oh yeah, very. Also the moment I realised there was something fundamentally different with how my mind works. Like you I had tried and rage quit many times.
Then I was in a CBT group for anxiety / panic management, and they relied heavily on guided meditations and visualization as tools. No-one else in the group had any problems, and could describe their imagined scenes in varying detail. I just sat there in frustration, looking at the inside of my eye lids. The psychologists that lead the group had no understanding or recognition of anything like that.
Some time later I found there was a word, and explanation, for this. Understanding that I’m actually incapable, and not just not trying hard enough, has helped me somewhat get past the frustration, and find other ways to use visualization based guided meditations; treating it more like narrative voice about a character in a story, and using that as focus instead of the imagery they intended. But I really prefer guided meditations that use exploration of actual current body sensations as focus. Or just simply guided breathing, which happens to be something I can also do on my own, mostly. And the only thing I have left when I catch anxiety about to tip over to panic, and that goes away too.
Also, got diagnosed as ADHD with (not yet further explored) autistic traits, in about the same time frame, so there’s been a lot of reinterpreting a life of “not trying hard enough” as “actually incapable, need to find another way around”. All that work might also have helped reframe guided meditation “failures”, but it all blends together. Oh, side-track.
TL;DR: Yes. 😉