Jayne Tisman

It’s probably no surprise that I don’t remember how I realized, only that it was in the last 2 years. I think I read an article about it. I’m a visual artist who can’t visualize. I simply react to the materials and what’s in front of me. My boys are entering adolescence. Suddenly the previous chapter of our lives together feels lost to me. I have boxes of journals and ephemera. They help to connect me to my previous lives. I see only blackness when I close my eyes- if I strive for more I sometimes see amorphous shapes of a areas of lightness but I think that is from leftover imprints of light on my eye’s “hardware”. When I try to think of people or places, there is something but it’s very vague and stitched together from facts I know. I’d like to learn more about what strengths I have that this condition is related to.