I most definitely have complete aphantasia. So, I would like to be officially screened and diagnosed as no one believes me. Attempts of treatment in my case would be futile. I would like to participate in research.
Until today, I didn’t know it had a name. I have been describing this condition to people (including doctors and psychologists) for years. I describe it precisely as it is defined, as the “inability to visualize images”. I also describe it as “the opposite of a photographic memory”. This inability in me is very complete.
I knew that my terrible short-term memory was connected. I used intelligence to compensate. I have to understand things, not memorize them. Learning in “normal” ways was not possible. This issue first showed itself when attempting to memorize multiplication tables in school. That came easy for most but was torturous for me.
In a way, it made me specialize. When I learn something, it sticks. People who memorize lose the memories over time. The stuff I remember from school stays with me, where others can’t remember the stuff memorized in school.
I have only met one other person who described the same condition to me. Before then, I thought I was a one-off. She recalled an incident where she was robbed working as a store clerk. She could not describe the robber (thus causing suspicion). I was shocked and told her I was the same way.
I often describe it to others like this. “I can stare at and study your familiar face for a time. Immediately thereafter, I could be put in front of a police sketch artist and not be able to provide ANY description.
I don’t think most people believe what I am saying to them. It is SO uncommon and extreme (in my case) that people can’t even understand the problem. I have terrible people skills and have traits of autism. I have always been able to compensate, poorly and clumsily, by use of intelligence.
So, I would like to be officially screened and diagnosed as no one believes me. Attempts of treatment in my case would be futile. Also, perhaps related, is that I have a severe lack of muscle memory. I can’t type by touch (typing class was an embarrassment). I can’t play golf. And, I can’t play guitar. Of course, I CAN try to do these activities, but nowhere near anything that could be considered normal.