Can you meditate?

Sarah asked 1 year ago


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Meditation has been recommended to me by a variety of health professionals. I’ve read about it and honestly given it my best effort, but I don’t “get” it; I don’t enjoy it, it doesn’t relax me, and I don’t seem to have the benefits all the various studies say should come with regular meditation. If you have aphantasia, what is your experience with meditation? Do you have a particular source that worked for you more than others?

Rachel C September 30, 2019 11:19 pm

I’ve tried meditation on a few occassions, and I feel that too. Most sources say to just let “thoughts and images” wash over you and to view them objectively as they pass you by. However… I could never get “thoughts and images” to wash over me; when I was meditating, I was not actively thinking of anything. No visuals “washed” over me, and I would just go quiet mentally. Thing is, I also don’t have an internal voice, so it also made meditation harder for me. Or that I thought I wasn’t doing it correctly. Because of this, I just found meditation to be boring; I’d sit in complete mental silence and darkness for thirty seconds, and then give up and stop because I was bored.

However, I do have a coworker that does visualize, and constantly has music “playing in his head” tell me how much meditation helps him. How he can essentially “step out of his mind” and view his thoughts objectively. However, he told me he needed to get into a physical state to view his thoughts objectively like that, and commented I was pretty much already in that state, even while awake and not meditating. I’m always in the present, never in the past or future. So aphants… might not even really need to meditate, if they’re already in the present this much? I suppose it would vary from person to person, but I’ve seen a lot of aphants admit that meditation just doesn’t work for them.

The only type of meditation I find somewhat helpful is (silent) mental chanting before I go to bed. I usually focus on one word or phrase and repeat it to myself to keep my mind from wandering before I go to bed. Sometimes it works in making me fall asleep, sometimes it doesn’t help my racing thoughts. Maybe that isn’t the type of meditation you were thinking of, but that’s what I’ve been doing for a few years now.

NatalieHodgson September 28, 2020 07:42 pm

I know what you mean, the way people talk about meditation and all the visual stuff I don’t get it either. I don’t get the thoughts and feelings thing with meditation, I can only see complete blackness or the inside of my eyelids. At first I found it frustrating a lot the sources kept saying to step back from them all and let them pass by, while I was sitting there thinking but there is nothing, nor an internal voice (as I don’t have one). Even having to try and say positive sentences bored me after while, so I gave up for a long time thinking I was doing it wrong as I just was in complete mental silence.

I eventally found something about body-scanning, where you focus on all parts of your body and to try and get tense areas to relax. I do get some benefit as it makes it easier for me to notice when I am getting stressed out by something, but I don’t think that is actually meditation. Or if it is, I certainly don’t make time to practice like people talk about.

Sean Connaughton October 14, 2020 04:25 pm

I tried to get into meditation earlier this year as I was referred to mindfullness classes by a CBT therapist but I always struggled to visualise and ‘see my thoughts as baloons" and could never see the beach that I was meant to be walking on. I had always assumed that I was just poor at meditation until today when I came across Aphantasia for the first time. I have spent the last 3 hours finding out as much as I can and now realise why I cannot visulise the day, or feel the heat and hear the waves of the beach I was meant to be on.

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