Hello Joe. Have you ever come across the Enneagram, especially as taught by the Enneagram Institute dot com? Since discovering it about 15 years ago it has helped me enormously to see and understand more about my own way of seeing and experiencing myself and the world. 

This happens to me all the time also: "As soon as calm returns, the negative thoughts and feelings immediately come to the fore again."

Reading your post I really felt as having similar "inner expierience". As I neither have a vivid memory nor imagination, I do not live in the past and once a problem of the present or future is resolved it literally disappears. This might make me slightly to forgiving to other people, unless someone tries to trap me in a neverending situation (I am divorced).Now that I am single again I have long stretches of tranquility, because once an issue is resolved it seaszes to matter.  I loved drawing as a kid and am still quite good but I could not draw anything from my imagination. Drawing a human I simply start with one eye, then the nose, the 2nd eye, but it never is part of a whole in my mind. It comes together on the paper, for better or worse. I mostly just drew from pictures.  I also love editing film material, I think I am quit creative, but my creative process does not start in the mind. I "explore and find" stuff while in progress of creation.   This might be for me also a reason why I love the visual medium. Reading a book is less fun for me. It might be emotional or exiting, but I never understood how other people converted words to pictures. I think , that is why I am a massive film fan, who loves beautifull movies, which are able to tell a story by visualls instead of words. My burden is, that I am awkward socially once a social relationchip goes to far (I think I might be an introvert). I can be logically empathetic. I can understand what others might go through, by I can never know or feel the others expierience. 

Hello Joe. Have you ever come across the Enneagram, especially as taught by the Enneagram Institute dot com? Since discovering it about 15 years ago it has helped me enormously to see and understand more about my own way of seeing and experiencing myself and the world. 

This happens to me all the time also: "As soon as calm returns, the negative thoughts and feelings immediately come to the fore again."

Reading your post I really felt as having similar "inner expierience". As I neither have a vivid memory nor imagination, I do not live in the past and once a problem of the present or future is resolved it literally disappears. This might make me slightly to forgiving to other people, unless someone tries to trap me in a neverending situation (I am divorced).Now that I am single again I have long stretches of tranquility, because once an issue is resolved it seaszes to matter.  I loved drawing as a kid and am still quite good but I could not draw anything from my imagination. Drawing a human I simply start with one eye, then the nose, the 2nd eye, but it never is part of a whole in my mind. It comes together on the paper, for better or worse. I mostly just drew from pictures.  I also love editing film material, I think I am quit creative, but my creative process does not start in the mind. I "explore and find" stuff while in progress of creation.   This might be for me also a reason why I love the visual medium. Reading a book is less fun for me. It might be emotional or exiting, but I never understood how other people converted words to pictures. I think , that is why I am a massive film fan, who loves beautifull movies, which are able to tell a story by visualls instead of words. My burden is, that I am awkward socially once a social relationchip goes to far (I think I might be an introvert). I can be logically empathetic. I can understand what others might go through, by I can never know or feel the others expierience.