Ernie Burga
@Maulveroux
Joined 8 days ago@Maulveroux
Joined 8 days agoFrom my personal experience: 1- It appears as a whole world inside my head, I feel it located behind my eyes a little to the top like a screen, the edges are dark but the middle is clear 2- Yes, i can see things in the real world and in my mind at the same time. 3- yes i can move attention back and forth. I cannot superimpose images seeing with my eyes but in my mind I can, like lets say im watching a sunset, with my eyes im seeing as it is but in my mind i can see the sunset and i can add things to it like an alien spaceship if i wanted to and i experience both things at the same time only in my minds eye with a slight delay, when i was younger i would watch like the power rangers and imagine myself inside the show as it was happening. 4-I believe my eyes stayed fixed whilst im focused on my mind, I experience my thought process mayorly as a voice inside my head like a constant narrator.
I have always known I was different however i never understood how, I always liked drawing and as a kid when i would draw my favourite cartoon characters to high detail from my mind, my mother and her friends would always ask how I did that? or as i grew older and for art class I would have to draw a rabbit or horse as homework and i would forget to do it so id have to do it before class, my friends would ask the same, i always found it odd that people would be amazed by it, but i never thought much of it cuz i was young, my mother was very neglectful so she didnt care much aside from showing off to her friends. when doing my A-levels in Fine Arts, I was always able to produce a Final piece easily and that scored full marks from my teachers (15/15) and at the last minute because in my head i already did it all i had to do was "print" it from my mind to the canvas, my peers didnt like it much as I did virtually no work and got the highest grades. on various occasions during my degree I would be doing multiple things at the same time during lectures which would bother my teachers so they would single me out and scold me for not paying attention, i would tell them i was infact paying attention to which they would reply with "tell me what I just said" and i would proceed to say exactly what they just said word by word cuz of the strong memory formed specially audio, they were shocked. All my close friends have always described me as very confident which i never agreed with however when you can see yourself seeing something in such vivid detail then it becomes easier to do because you "have already done it". I have always had this sense that im different possibly smarter however never did super well in maths or chemistry. it wasnt until I accidentally came across an article about Hyper phantasia that I started looking into it and finally figured it out, it has made my life much more easier to deal with as I understand my self more, this has shaped the way i do things a lot, things i do that seem weird to others or incredible, i know why now. this realisation has helped the way I see my self in that I always thought i was a bit of a wimp or even a down right coward for not being able to watch horror movies, but other people dont experience those movies like I do, because i have to remember those shocking scenes much more vividly, they can forget, i cant. finding out im Hyperphantastic has helped my shift the way i think about my self in this sense, like if i were to be allergic to nuts (horror movies) and i avoid nuts that wouldnt make me a coward. Even my dreams and nightmares are much more vivid, so real in fact that sometimes i wake and im confussed for a few seconds.