Colm Daly

I'm 58 and only realised I was aphantasia a week ago while on holiday with my wife. We were talking about a big secret my brother told me over 30 years ago and I said I could not tell my wife at the time. she mentioned it on our holiday in conversation and I had no recollection of it at all. (we had talked before about how I could only remember parts of my life and instead had a kind of a bullet point memory of my life and did not have good memory of events on occasions). she said its ok I know you said you would keep it secret, but I really didn't remember the secret my brother told me. We started diving into how I could forget something so important. She said she could vivid remember the whole event. we talked for ages and when she described she could see images and video and sounds I was like "what the hell" your kidding me. I told her when I close my eyes I see nothing but darkness and silence. she was shocked. I did/do feel about a bit cheated to be honest. But have had a good life so far and hasn't affected me (how could it) as I was aware I was different . I did struggle in school and was probably the most lightly person to fail in life. But I think that pushed me and I did well in life and I veered toward a career in production, IT and Fintech etc, so all good jobs. I did find out in my 40's that I suffer from Dyslexia , so put my school and other issues down to that. Now realising I also have aphantasia and SDAM they probably made it harder for me as well with study and work stuff. Its a shock finding out others can see images and video and sound and taste in their head, but hey I cant really be mad about loosing something I never had I guess. Next thing is to check out if anyone else in the family has it and maybe ask my brother what the hell was that big secret lol.