Nayely Reyes

Im 36 years old. I listen to the podcast Distractible with Mark Bob, and Wade. Bob has aphantasia and because of that they touch the topic a bit. Just hearing the podcast idk I didnt fully pay attention to what they were saying but one of their shows they go thought some mental visualizations and that kind of when I consciously noticed I dont see anything. Each of them have different levels of phantasia and I realized I have non just like Bob. I always thought it was just a metaphore I didnt know people LITERALLY see images colors etc in their mind. I thought TV shows and movies did the little thought bubbles above the head as a visual to show what they were thinking. Like theres no other way to portray that on a screen right? I can follow thought and think about it but dont see anything. It never truly hit me that I don't see images. I've been going thorough an aphantasia rabbit hole doing different tests. Searching for videos on youtube to understand it more. Found this website. I had my husband do one of the tests because I know his senses are super strong. Hes on the couch doing the test I'm sitting close where I can see him and he is reacting to everything. It is insane how different we are with this. It explains soooo much though. Seeing his results and mine idk it actually made me break down a bit. Just feels like another thing empty or wrong with me. I want to understand this better so I stop feeling that.