Ceecee Gee

I was recently diagnosed with sever ADHD with other underlying conditions that my psychological group were not able to assess as my ADHD assessment was paid for by work bc. I am 43 and just found out that I also have aphantasia! What a trip! I am actually kinda pissed off that I do not have the ability to create any form of image in my mind. No matter how hard I try I see only black sometimes a white pin point of white light or green light but that is it. However I am quite a good storyteller. I write a lot of books of course not completed blame it on the ADHD I suppose but now people are asking me how do you write such in-depth super interesting super detailed stuff when you don't have any visions on your head. My answer is I don't freaking know lol. Also when you ask about day dreaming that's a little hard to answer because I daydream all the time but it's more like disassociating and I'm not seeing things but just simply thinking of things. And talking to myself I do that constantly but also no words just thoughts back and forth so those questions were a bit confusing. My memories of I remember them are just memories lol like zero anything but a thought so ya very strange to find out that people have an actual minds eye because I surely do not.