Judith Lappi

I am 67 years old and just figured out I’m aphantasic. I have also had brain surgery 26 years ago and have lost some short term memory. I believe I could see things in my mind even after my brain surgery occasionally. I think I lost all ability due to grief when 2 of my siblings died recently who I was close to, only 45 days apart 2 years ago. I dream a lot but never see the faces of my deceased family and friends. But I hear their voices in my dreams. I don’t sleep much at night but can’t tell you what I’m thinking about. My mind feels empty. I have a hard time praying as I can’t visualize who I’m praying for or visualize Jesus. This feels new. Like I can’t visualize the big case in the news of the atrocities to those 3 children. I know it’s unspeakable horror but I can’t see it in my mind. I guess I’m thankful for that. It sure is a weird place to be.