Safira Ray

I am a late age identifying and diagnosed AuDHD'r. I got the official autism part of the dx 6 months ago. The assessment showed that my verbal reasoning is in the 84th percentile and my working memory is in the 93rd percentile. One of the visualizations/memories assessments shows I score in the top 6% of those who have taken these. I found liberation with my dx. I have been learning so much about myself, and in turn, how abusive and neglectful my upbringing was. I am about 3 months into my first every truly therapeutic dose of ADHD medication, Concerta. I have very much been experiencing that surge of autism characteristics that comes when it no longer has to fight the ADHD. I had already figure out my pattern recognition capabilities where higher than I thought, prior to this dose of Concerta, and now most days I'm still a bit gobsmacked by how my brain works. I describe my mind like this sometimes: it's like I am standing and watching a live stream on a screen inside my head of what I am doing at any given time. Right now as I am typing this out, I am seeing a movie of it in my mind, complete with narrating what I am typing, while hearing it in my mind, in my own voice. I joke about my memory being like an old school library card catalog. It's a lot of info, but with enough context (dewey decimal system) I can get pretty detailed on old memories. Those also play movies in my mind, getting more clear and defined with context. I can feel when I see someone get injured. Watching a video yesterday of someones hand being broken in a door, I was hollering pretty loudly as it happened. I dance to songs I can hear in my mind. Fans sound like music. The electricity is hella loud right now. I haven't figured out yet why I smell occasional phantom odors. There's so much more I am figuring out more about daily. I was recently told by someone in a position to be able to say something like this, that an idea I shared with her might rewrite the framework of the supportive housing system. I seem to be intuitively inclined towards neuroplasticity, and I am about to start reading a quantum physics for beginners book, so that I have words to put to what I am pretty sure I already understand. So there's all that. I would love to hear from someone, because I'm pretty sure I'm working with something fairly uncommon here, and some insight would be magical. I will be 51 this year and Amerikkka locked me into a life of trauma and I'm pissed. Lol. I would love some guidance on how to start making up for lost time and tap into my full potential here. Please and thank you.